[2015.May]

Walking past our local art school always makes me wonder how my life would've turn out if i wasn't scared.If I had just a little bit more confidence and if I would just given myself a little bit more credit.
I know that everyone says that you shouldn't live in the past, but sometimes you just can't help it but wonder how things would've work out.
It's probably the only thing I would change if I could go back in time (if anyone out there knows a way, hit me up with the info).
I will introduce here the corny excuse most people tell after an unfulfilled dream or failed task "Everything happens for a reason", I used to believe in that so hard in my younger years, it was good for everything, relationships, friendships, accidents, most life events.
It's comforting, it takes away the blame.Most of you would probably say:"yes but what you've been through helped you become who you are now" and you are totally right, I agree but you don't know anything, who you would be if your choices were different, for example maybe you wouldn't take one year to finally realize what you really want to do with your life, in which direction do you want your life to turn, which by the way was right under your eyes.Maybe it would've been easier, you know, for you, for your soul.There are so many hard and tiring things in life in the future maybe an easier start would've helped.I took the hard path, I learned the hard way, but I guess right now I'm headed into the right direction, I'm doing what I love and maybe in a year I'll reflect on these times and have a totally changed opinion but right now, what I do, where I tend to go and what I intend to accomplish make me happy and confident and I'm writing this down to remind myself that for the first time I have a direction and a final goal.

[2016.May]

I made it!
I did it.
I got into art school, and I feel so very accomplished and fulfilled.
I keep learning new things, I keep discovering myself and new ways to express myself.
I absolutely love what I'm doing, and this path I'm walking on.
I've met lovely people who turned out to be my friends, I love being around them, they are the nicest people ever.
At home everything is calm, looking back at the rough times we went through last year, now everything is amazing.
I've met an amazing person, who now, I can proudly call my boyfriend, he is the best.I absolutely love him so much, it's unbelievable how well we complete and understand each other.I've never felt this way before, it's like a fairytale.
All I have to say is that it was worth it, it was worth every tear and every sleepless night, I wouldn't change a thing.I feel so happy.
This post is for every person who is going through a rough time, please hold on, things are always getting better, and this is just an example.
Please don't give up, life can be pretty amazing, wait and experience it on your own. :)

Take care!
B.