I'm quite awkward when it comes to introductions,I'm awkward in general,aaand I just ruined this first paragraph,great.
Great example of how things happened in my life so far,chaotic and not according to what I pictured in my head.

Okay,rephrasing everything.

Dear future-most-significant-person in my life,
hello,how ya doin'?
hi,it me
hello 
hi
kbye
this isn't working

I'm thinking about you a lot more recently to be honest,maybe because it's spring and I see so many couples holding hands outside,or maybe because most conversations I have with strangers show me that they're not you.I can't see your face yet,I don't know what colors are playing hide and seek in your eyes or the way you smile,or your naughty smirk,I just know that when I'll meet you it will feel like home,a new one,with the smell of those newly painted walls,but home.
I miss you.
I hope you are alright now,I hope you have a great life,and if you don't then I'm really sorry and I promise I will soothe your wounds one day.Be strong for now.
I'm working on myself right now,I'm a bit scared of my future,I wish I could do what makes me happy,I wish I could do beautiful art and show new perspectives to this world without starving tho,that would be great.

There are times when I think I'm mad I wish you were here when those nights come.

I have good people in my life,I'm surrounding myself with loving people,with inspirational people,with smart people and I love them with all my heart.Just how I will learn to love you one day.so corny

You might be anywhere right now,can't wait to meet you.
IT'S GONNA BE SO AWESOME,we'll be going on adventures together and I will make you muffins and nice art and you will make me tea and whatever-you-are-into.It will be so cheesy,haha.Great.


Until then do your thing babe,I'll do mine; then, when it's time we'll meet and make it legendary.
Be good.
Love,me.